Life In Thoughts

This weekend has been a really mixed bag for me. It's helped me think about some things, and get things into perspective, but left me a little dazed and disappointed.
Work was good. I really love my work mates. They keep life lighthearted, most of the time. They help me to have a laugh. I'm going to miss them when we move on to working in different places. But of course it's something I'll make the most of whilst I have it.
Then Saturday night, I did something I haven't done in a while. And I don't think I'm so happy about it. The way people act... it's kinda hard to take it. It hit me hard, and I don't think I'll be repeating that again any time soon. I must say it was a nice solid reminder of what I've left behind, and how much better my life is now. I didn't enjoy that night very much at all.
Today I was in a great rush to return to the comforts of spending time with Kyla and Abe. Once I was finally at Abe's with the two of them I could relax. I enjoyed the rest of the day.
This evening I've been talking to a friend. He was a good friend. He's very confusing. How he's been the past month or so... well, I miss how it was before. I would love for our relationship to go back to how it was, round the beginning of May. Tonight he spoke to me for quite a while, which is unusual lately. Our conversation has made me think a lot about friendships, and losing people, and how we live life. I have some good friends right now, and I think I should still value him in that group. I'm not going to give up on having him return to our group. I have so many things to say to him, many questions to ask, and I can just hope one of them will make him think, and see all this change has done has hurt some of the people that care for him most. As for losing people... I've lost lots of people I've been close to at times in my life. One was the entire group I lost just this year. I barely miss them one bit. It was a terrible lifestyle. I am glad to have moved on from that. I'm sure living life in a better way now. However, some people we lose we can't seem to let go of. I lost a friend almost two years ago, and still think of him, almost everyday. I wonder what he's doing now, and wonder if he ever thinks of me.
So now I'll go off again, back to my own world of thoughts. I'm trying to think positively, but of course there's the sad sides. The friend I lost years ago, and the friendship I'm trying to cling to now.