Life In A Hectic Mind

I figure I haven't posted since after Sheilah Winn weekend... I just haven't felt much like blogging, really. A fair amount has happened, though. After that weekend, well, most of the next week was spent recovering. I was simply exhausted. Now that it's done the drama has calmed a little, but is still keeping up a major appearance in my schedule. There's HaBYT, which we're about to start filming scenes of a play for, and then I have NCEA drama to think about, which includes two hour rehearsals after school on monday, which I am now following straight by a salsa class, which is great fun. The rehearsals drag on. There's a lot of sitting around. It's not like the Sheilah Winn rehearsals. Those four hour rehearsals went faster than these two hours. At Sheilah Winn we were all involved, all the time. In Our Town there are three acts, and in some you may have two lines, then just sit for the rest of the time. Just sitting, whilst other people are having their scenes blocked.
Just sitting isn't that good for me lately, I guess. I have a lot to think about, and they're things I don't mind being distracted from. There's still that friend who I'm worried about. He's avoiding me, and that hurts. Each small conversation I have with him gives me something fresh to think about, a new worry or confusion. Alongside that I have come to find that, not for the first time, I am hurting someone. Just by being me. My friend apparently likes me. If I give him a hug, I can see he's sad... He wants more, but I just love him dearly as a friend. And other than those two, drama creeps into my mind all the time, as well as the normal things. Missing old friends, how things are with current friends...
Right now I should be on the bus, and almost at school. But instead I'm sitting in my bed, typing this. It's bad, I know, but I was supposed to head to town to do some work for a class, and then when I couldn't make it my group fell apart and now no one is going. We are so far behind right now; it's awful. So rather than go and spend a lesson with them at school, and face my least favourite class right after it, I decided to spend an extra couple of hours at home. I can make this time productive, of course. Once I'm done with this I'll see what my classes for the rest of the day are, and make sure anything I should have done last night is done for them. That's bad too... I keep on saying I'll do my homework, and keep on top of things. Then going to see a friend, or pointless quizzes on facebook, seem more appealing.
I think there's one final thing I'd like to mention, and that is photography. I'd had a horrible dry spell in photography, and hadn't really taken anything at all, but now I'm well on the way to having more photographs. The way photoshoots have happened lately is I meet with Kyla, and we take turns modelling and behind the camera. Since we can borrow her mum's camera which is far better than mine we both use that. There's the problem. Our pictures are mixed together. Anyone else who is with us wants a turn. It's hard to tell who took which photos. It's ok to get my editing work up, but I really think I should start shooting on my own camera again, even if it's not so good as the D200. Next shoot I plan to do that. Then my Flickr might see some work again.
Ok, it's time to get ready, then see what I can tackle with homework until I want to get to school.