Life In Use

We all use people. Whether it is right or wrong is determined by the reasons for which we use them.
I was just thinking, "I'm kinda unfair to Louis... I speak to him because he amuses me and makes me feel wanted." I then realised that that is a fine reason to use someone. I enjoy talking to him. And my guess is he enjoys talking to me too. Interdependence. Wonderful concept.
Of course there are those people we use for the wrong reasons, but wonderfully I don't think I have any people like that around me for now. I enjoy the company of everyone I spend time with.
The concept of "you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone" works both ways. People tend to take that as not realising how good something is until you lose it. A friendship, a job, your school... But it also works with losing bad things. Realising you have an allergy, perhaps, and not realising how bad you felt until cutting the allergen out of your life. Or, in my current situation. A bad crowd. I loved the group of friends I had until recently, I really enjoyed hanging around with them. My social life was amazing, but not entirely healthy. Now I am not spending time with that group anymore, I realise how bad the lifestyle they lead is, and as a part of it I didn't notice. It was fun, so I miss it, but I think I'm happier now. There are still things missing, of course, we all have wants, but even with my dead social life and lack of alcoholic consumption (ok, I am missing bad bits...) I'm feeling pretty damn good lately.
As one door closes, many more will open. I now feel more open to spending more time with my other friends. Maybe when Sheila Win is over I'll be able to do that. Performance thursday. I'm sure to feel some pre-performance nerves, but I know that I am confident with these scenes, and we can make this great. Our rehearsals were brilliant today, and the pieces improved multiple times throughout the afternoon. Ready to rock. =D
I'll explain the connection of my thoughts, from using people, to the bad crowd. I was using a "friend" in that group. I was friends with her because it was her place we were free to go to whenever we wanted, to drink at... But I didn't really enjoy being around her. Not using her anymore does mean the loss of the friends I had in that group, but the way things have turned out now, perhaps they weren't such good friends afterall.
Anyway, I shall stop rambling, this is becoming aimless. Farewell.