Rant against Humanity.

Today I dressed up as Lara Croft and shot at people with a toy gun. This was fun, however I am sometimes pushed to the point where I wish the gun was real, and I had a line up of my most hated people.
This evening my outrage was at something on the news. A farm breeding pheasants, then releasing them into a park. The purpose of these pheasants? To be shot. The law here means that only the hunter can eat them. They can not be sold or given away. People were saying what a shame it was that they can't sell them and so many birds are just shot and left. How about you stop shooting the birds then? It is that fucking simple. How can anyone find killing something fun? It's barbaric. These people must be suffering from some sort of retardation or psychosis if they enjoy shooting a helpless bird.
Something that stunned me before was something that happened in drama. Walt throwing lollies at the class. This practically turned them savage as they chased the lollies attempting to get them before someone else did. It made me think of the Kiwi concept, lolly scrambles. Whilst most of the time we teach our young to share, not to snatch, and all that jazz... a lolly scramble is an occassion where the opposite is encouraged. Thinking about this baffled me. It's amazing, the little things that make people revert back to savage behaviours, when people seem to pride themselves on being civilised. People are disgusting.
In other news my cat spent a night at the vet. He's home now, with a new diet to try and prevent the same thing happening again. But he's off doing something and he's usually back for dinner by now. He does sometimes bugger off for a while, but it's a bit worrying when he's been ill. Hopefully he turns up soon.
So there you go. I hate humanity. I love my cat. Such is life.

Return To Walton's World

Year 13 Drama Trip. An event which was certainly looked forward to.

Fun. Valuable. Exhausting.

Of course it was fun. We had many good laughs. Playing KFM and Would You Rather in the girls' dorm was good fun. Shopping was great fun.
It was valuable seeing the shows. I enjoyed both of them. The acting was pretty high quality and they both had interesting ideas. I think if the right questions come up in the exam they'll be great for writing about. The most valuable part of the trip however was the visit to Toi. I was so tempted to apply this year, but didn't want to miss out on doing English. Going to Toi confirmed to me that it would be an amazing experience, but also that the experience can wait til after I experience university. I'll be 21 when I start there that way, and that isn't a bad age to be starting at Toi.
It was exhausting because we spent two very long days, and the third day although not long it was travelling and that is tiring in itself.
Now I am on sheep watching duty because one of the old girls, Rosie, is seeming pretty ill. We have had to help her up a couple of times. Possibly pneumonia. Not sure she'll make it through the night really. It's sad because you can tell she's trying really hard to keep going but she's just so weak. Poor girl.

One of Those Days

Say goodbye, to the world you thought you lived in.

Today I got punched in the head (by a friend, it was an accident). Now I have a headache. I feel pretty crap. I think HaBYT will have to be given a miss tonight. I just don't feel up to it.
Apparently I also got called a slut. Fucking whoopee. 
I should get homework done, but all I really want to do is lay down and sleep/ponder how crap humanity is.
What a crap day. English + lunchtime were the good parts. Besides that, shit.

Slob and Bruises

I don't feel like there's a creative bone in my body right now, so who knows why I'm writing. But anyway.
The skiing part of going skiing wasn't so great, since the snow was a bit thin so it was rocky, and it is school holiday so it was too busy. The being out of Hawke's Bay was good though. I definitely look forward to Wellington in August.
Eye candy was definitely good on the slopes. That was fun. Haha. What a laugh.
This is such a total rut. I need to get my work done for school. I only really have sunday left for that though. That's such a bloody shame because there is a lot of it to do.
Another positive is at some point next week I am so going for a facial next week. My work mate gave me a 50% of voucher to a beauty salon so I figure I might try out that luxury.
Another negative is my jerky friend in Aus. He's not talking to me. Which I don't quite understand because it surely should be the other way around. I'm always too nice to him. He's frequently a total dick. So I should be not talking to him. But, you know. I flick between happily chatting with him, angrily grilling him, icily ignoring him and unreasonably ending up talking to him again. Loop goes on. Seems to work for us.
MM is a half positive. He's totally an awesome friend. The half negative is that he is in Chch.
A major positive is I have spent most of the past two days on the couch watching Outrageous Fortune season 5 on DVD. It has been the nicest slobby experience. Aside from that I did go for a walk with Bianca yesterday so the slobbing has been balanced out.
I have to work tomorrow. Not a happy thought but I do need the money so positive face on for that one. A negative on that front though is I managed to roll my ankle an hour or so ago and it really hurts. In the process of falling as my ankle rolled I bashed my knee on the coffee table, so have a nice bruise there. I am sure that will be fun and painful at work.
For feeling uncreative, I think this is a good long post.

This Ain't A Love Song

I love love love that song right now.

And I'm a little bit lost without you,
And I'm a bloody big mess inside,
And I'm a little bit lost without you,
This ain't a love song,
This is goodbye.


I'm still suffering from goodbyes and being stuck in this dump. And being under 18. I just want to get out tonight, but don't think anyone's doing anything other than pub. So not only am I stuck in this wee town, I'm stuck home with nothing to do on a saturday night. So iPod on and seclude myself.
I hate this. I consciously know things are good, but I still don't feel happy. All I am looking forward to is skiing next week, Wellington in August, England in Dec/Jan, Wellington next year... see a theme here? Not in H.B. I am so over this place. I'm not sure what's keeping me sane.

Whole Lot Of Leaving Going On

What is this goodbye crap? They say the world is a smaller place these days, but as I am stuck in Hawkes Bay the world feels huge. And here I am. Stuck here. I need to get out. I feel so trapped here... and everyone seems to be drifting away.
Julia, then Connor, then Elles... all pretty sad goodbyes. And I won't see them until the end of the year, fingers crossed I see them then... Yet, sad as those goodbyes were. The goodbye just now was harder... and he's only going to the bloody south island. It's just... he was only here for three weeks, and it feels like I barely saw him in that time. I saw him so much last time he was back so it was really great. This time was shitty.
I better go skiing next week, or I'll go totally mental. I can't stand to stay here without at least a little break, and the mountains will be the perfect getaway. I am so over HB right now.

Just a few words.

It has been a funny time lately. What with parents being away, and everyone leaving. It's really strange. Really just one last goodbye to go with Elles on wednesday. Other than that sad occassion I hope I will have a really good holiday. Though, I already picked up two extra shifts at work, and have to do my drama and food work... hopefully I will feel like I've had some kind of break. I had such a good time on our girls day out yesterday. More days like that would make a brilliant holiday.